So I just woke up. And I wanted to text you Goodmorning. But there’s no point. I’m fucking miserable and I miss you so much. I need you so much right now. And it sucks because nobody gives a fuck. I’m tired of waking up crying at the thought of you. I just wanna fast forward and wake up in the future to a time where I’m happy. Or better yet.. Turn it back to a time I had you. I don’t know why I’m complaining or crying anymore. You are never coming back.especially with mr perfect who everybody loves…I’m living a nightmare. You’re so happy now and I’ll take every bit of this misery just to see you happy. I know you had a good time last night according to a couple of people. And it’s sad because I tried so hard to provide you with everything you have now. I need to accept that I was only a stepping stone to your magnificent life now. It sucks so much because this is how I’ll be the rest of my life. I’ll never take another girl seriously. You all say, it shouldn’t be hard for you to get a girl. But I know what I want and I’ll never settle for anyone who isn’t you. I’m doing my best to not text you and leave you alone like you wished. I’m suffering, I don’t know how much longer I can handle this. It’s literally almost completely eaten me alive. I’m not better than I was a week ago when I snapped. I’m only getting worst. I’ll be in bed all day, thinking. But I hope you have another wonderful day. I love you.
We don’t really talk anymore, and I don’t know quite how to. Or if it’s even right. The saddest part is we used to be inseparable and best of all unstoppable. I don’t know if you’re reading, I just hope you’re doing well with your new life as you wished. I’m trying my best to deal with it on my own. I’ve only been distracted the last three days. Truth is I’m miserable and I don’t know when I’ll be okay. It confuses me how you contradicted yourself. Seeing you tomorrow will be extremely difficult but after that I know there would be no other reason to see or be around me. So I can REALLY disappear this time for you. I mean it. I fucking miss you and i’ll miss you forever. I’ve given my all. To piece this once upon a time love. I just wish you’d remember..